From the moment I found out I was pregnant with Jude my greatest desire was not that I would raise obedient children. Actually, if I am being truly honest, it has never been that they would be good christians. My greatest desire for my children is that they would grow to love God and to live their lives loving others with compassion, mercy and justice.
This afternoon Brandon and I had a parent-teacher conference with Jude’s teacher. She spent some time telling how smart our son is, and of course we were so glad to hear he is developing academically. It was what she told us next that brought me the greatest joy I have had since becoming a mom. Jude’s teach went on to tell us how extremely kind Jude is. She told us that Jude is always looking out for others and is always the one to run to another child’s side when he sees they are in need. He shows true compassion for others and it has never been prompted by his teacher or another adult. It genuinely comes from his heart. She told us he has shown himself to be a leader to his classmates and sets and example not by his words but his actions. She told us that he has been such a leader that she even created a new class role called “Leader of the Day”. This person gets to help lead the class and is given responsibilities to do so. As she continued to tell us more tears began to well up in my eyes. Proud doesn’t even begin to describe the how I felt in that moment. As he has grown I have watched his love for God grow and his heart for other be demonstrated in everything he does. Even at the age of 4 he stands for justice and loves so unconditionally.
As a parent we are to raise our children and teach them but I have honestly learned more from him that I could have ever taught him. I have learned that loving God isn’t about rules that must be followed but instead loving God is a great adventure. Jude has shown me that love doesn’t see status or race and doesn’t seek repayment.
I am so greatly blessed to be a mom to my children. It still completely blows my mind that God would allow me this privilege. I pray each day God would give me wisdom to steward this blessing well. To speak life into my children and to empower them to become everything He says they are. Today was just a glimpse into who Jude is and I know I will experience many more moments like today.
“Children born to a young man are like arrows in a warriors hands” Psalm 127:4