Today we are celebrating Jude’s 3rd birthday. I can’t believe how fast three years have gone and today I am reminded to take in every second because they go so fast. As we begin our week of celebration I can’t help but to look back to before I was even pregnant with Jude.
It was exactly one year before I found out I was pregnant. Brandon and I had been married a little over a year. We had just decided to expand our family. One night I had a dream about my future baby. I was pregnant with a child and God was telling me he had his hand on that baby. I took that as a sign that we were going to get pregnant quickly but to my dismay that first month went by and there was no baby. After about five months of disappointment I began to get discouraged. Why would God allow me to dream of my child when he wasn’t willing to give me one? I remember one night, through tear filled prayers, God led me to 1 Samuel 1. In this passage, Hannah has gone years without children. She was in “deep anguish” (1 Samuel 1:10) as she cried out this prayer:
And she made this vow: “O Lord of Heaven’s Armies, if you will look upon my sorrow and answer my prayer and give me a son, then I will give him back to you. he will be yours for his entire lifetime, and as a sign that he has been dedicated to the Lord, his hair will never be cut.” – 1 Samuel 1:11 (NIV)
Through Eli, God promised to give Hannah a child and He did. Hannah gave birth to a son who she named Samuel. As time went on, I clung to this scripture and the promise in my dream that I was going to have a child. Exactly one year from the time I had my dream, we found out I was finally pregnant! We were so excited and I entered into a journey that has led me to this very moment. During my pregnancy God has shown me who my baby was. That they were called to be a prophet and through prophetic words from outsiders, God confirmed that truth. Even before I knew our baby was a boy, I had received a prophetic word that my baby was a Samuel. Not only was my baby a fulfilled promise but he was called to be a prophet and a voice to the nations.
Over the last three years I have witnessed that to be true. Jude has always loved to pray not just for food and at night, but for others at all times. He loves to read God’s word and sing His praises. His passion for God is truly unmatched and it challenges me every day. I know that God has a big plan for my sweet boy and I know that God speaks to him while he sleeps. When Jude wakes up in the morning, he is usually not shy about sharing his dreams of God with us. Jude never ceases to amaze me and I am so thankful for him each day. I can see God’s hand on his life. I can see God shaping him and molding him. I am so unbelievably honored that he calls me his mommy. I consider each day a blessing, even when they are hard. I pray that God would continue to give me wisdom on how to love Jude more. How to speak life into him and call out the destiny within him. Most importantly, I pray that I would be a good steward of the privilege of being his mommy.
Today I am thankful for the past three years. Thankful for the privilege of partnering with God in raising this amazing man. As I look at him and a reminded of that dream years ago. I am reminded of God’s faithfulness to keep His promises. I am reminded that God can use anyone, even a 3-year-old boy. As I prepare our home for my sweet boy’s birthday, I can’t help but to cry. Not just because he is getting older, but because he is so amazing. The Lord has called Jude by name long before I did and I am so excited to see the many journeys God takes him on!
HAPPY 3RD BIRTHDAY JUDE MICHAEL YATES!!!!
You also will command nations you do not know, and peoples unknown to you will come running to obey because I, the Lord your God, the Holy One of Israel, have made you glorious. – Isaiah 55:5