For 2 years now, God has been tugging at my heart to start something. At first I wasn’t sure what it was but I spent the time in prayer and seeking Him. I started to write everything down. I had journal upon journal of thoughts, prayers and random ideas. As the journals piled up God began tugging again. What he was asking was a very scary request. He was asking me to take a step of faith. To take a leap to a level of vulnerability that , even as I write this post, make my stomach turn and I feel like I could throw up. For the last 6 months I have fought this blog. I had excuse after excuse of why it was a horrible idea. The “What Ifs….” began to cloud my mind and I became content to ignore the request. Life went on as usual and I felt like all was well. Thankfully God would not allow me to forget. I would have dreams, words spoken over me. Even random people comment about a blog. To some it may have seemed like a coincidence but I knew better. God was still speaking to me through all avenues. Reminding me of the dream he spoke to my heart. Through countless tears and prayer and conversations, I decided to take the step. I decided that God’s call is greater than the “What If’s…”. I am taking a step away from fear and walking towards living a life of dreaming with God no matter what the cost.
“You gain strength, courage and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face… You must do the thing you think you cannot do.” – Eleanor Roosevelt